Oh and I guess Jack too.

they are my heroes at this very moment as my typeing this.

mmm

Brandiannette

I'm so sick of waiting around for the perfect guy to come into my life.

 I'm taking a step back and living my life to the fullest with out someone hold me down and when that perfect guy comes into my life i`ll know. I just don`t want to be single for the as long as I live, just for a little bit.

so starting now its my life, not anyone else's, its my time to live and not getting stop.

xoxo

Brandiannette

RALPH [my baby boy]

my only true love right now.

I live by these..
People will always talk about you,
especially when they envy you
and the life you live.
Let them.
you affected their life, they didn't affect yours.

I believe that everything I go through in life,
puts me one step closer to being a better person,
& if it weren't for my mistakes,
I wouldn't be the person I've become.
I am still growing,
I am still learning,
Tomorrow I will be more than I am today.

Check Out My Art Please! :]

My name is Brandi Annette. My body is sacred. I've got more inside me then out. I've found a hobby: trying to find a hobby. I'll try things till I get it right. I use my eyes to see new things, and I'll learn from watching things happen. I catch on quick. I take pride in the things I do, but I still know when I do wrong. I try to live drama free. it's the one things I hate. My intentions are always good, ill never be the person to bring you down. On the other hand I'll tell you how it is. I guess I'm controversial. I don't let things that matter pass by, I just let the things that don't roll off my back. I'm messy, but its said every artist is. I'm all about having fun! If I screw up its on me, and I promise I'll move on.

I believe that everything I go through in life, puts me one step closer to being a better person, if it weren't for my mistakes, I wouldn't be the person I've become. I am still growing, I am still learning, Tomorrow I will be more than I am today.

i give big, long hugs. but you probably already know that.my life is incredibly pointless, but i try to make it worthwhile.the smell of cookies in the oven. mmm. the way it feels after it rains.

i have a lot of disorders. i express myself awkwardly; i rarely express how i'm feeling. i'm friends with basically everyone in taxes. i've been through a lot of real shit. i don't want to be understood, only accepted. i live in a world made upon dreams. i suffer from introverted fantasies. in these fantasies i am allowed to enjoy you; but life, environment, and situations force me to suppress these desires. i plan on becoming a detective/p.i. i drum with my fingers and hands, a lot. Corey! he's my best friend, and i love him.

i want to wake up every morning to something wonderful. i see everything in unique perspectives. i'd spend all day skipping rocks if i could. i have been blessed with an amazing gift. i'm trying to make the best out of my situation.  i'm searching for serenity and a moment of complete satisfaction. i'm really competitive(sometimes). i laugh at people who do stupid things. i'm pretty chill, and i'd like to take things easy for a while.

I am one incredibly lucky girl.
Things will never be perfect,
and as soon as you grasp that concept
you can live and understand how beautiful life is.

sometimes i wish i could scream it all out there, so someone would get the point, and that someone would understand.

MOST OF THE THINGS YOU WORRY ABOUT NEVER HAPPEN.

i'm a bitch because i don't like you. i'm ugly because i'm not up to your standards. i change because i want to better myself. i love because i have a big heart. i cry because i have a soul. im opinionated because im allowed to have my own beliefs. im smart because i have a brain and use it. im loyal because i believe in karma. im blunt because i think you deserve to know the truth. im annoying because your boring. i talk to much because you dont talk enough. im sensitive because i dont like to get hurt. i am who i am, take it or leave it. so true its funny.

Everyone wants what they can't have &

when they get it they dont want it anymore.

But if you take a step back and realize what

you have, it can be a beautiful thing!

 I find making fun of people and talking shit a bogus waste of time.

TEAM JACOB!!

I liked him since Shark Boy and Lava Girl.
<333

i am nothing like you.
i am no better than you.
i am a lot to handle.
i am real.
i am not impressed, guaranteed.

pronounced b-ran-di ah-NET

someone optimistic.someone respectful. someone real.

Independent. Can support himself.Can take care of me (even though I can take care of myself).

TRUSTWORTHY.

Has a passion for something.Is going after some kind of dream.Is doing something with his life and is going somewhere with it.

Loving and cute (in the sense of him doing things).

Can make me laugh. Has an upbeat personality.Can bring me up when im down.Has strong beliefs.

Has a love for music and art (idk this is just something very important to me and I wanna be able to share it).

Is the same around his friends.Strong inside.

Having a fashion sense would be a plus.Understanding.Encouraging.

Someone who knows how to cook more than noodles ;)Likes to Dance! (even if they cant).

Isn't after one thing.Can be committed.Has morals.Is social.

Someone I can wrestle with! Some one I can wake up with and knows I can be all of these things for him.

i sound picky, but i believe hes out there :)

Art is what i do best. its speaks for me.

I'm someone who likes to take risks and have fun. My brain and mouth no longer work in partnership and I tend to say what ever pops into my head. I like to think i'm honest, however brutally. If i've spoken to you on myspace, and i don't know you in person, and you see me, say 'Hi', because I most likely wont recognize / remember you.

I'm also not: a cheat, a thief, a slag, a whore, self centered, ego-stystical, ect.

I don't blend into a crowd and I don't alter my persona based on who I'm with, I think if you need to change yourself just to make friends you might as well just be on your own. I try my hardest to be a good person and I don't sugarcoat things. I don't pretend I've had it hard and I don't play the victim, I know the world doesn't revolve around me. I like to meet fresh faces, make new friends. I think I'm quite social in that respect. All I want from music is something I can dance to or sing-a-long with. I like blowing the dust off some of my old movies and games every so often and play them with friends.

some say i have a weird way of thinking about things, but i honestly just think im more curious than anyone i know. im curious about how the world works, and families. how certain things happen because another thing happens. im always looking in the mirror and thinking im looking at a stranger because you see yourself the least everyday, yet, you communicate with yourself, almost every second. i wonder how people see me from the outside looking in. i dont trust mirrors, i never have, i think they're lacking something. i dont know what, but, i don't feel like when i look into a mirror, thats what people see. my mind works in very mysterious ways and i couldn't tell you half the thoughts that go through my head for fear you'd think i was obsurd.

"Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that may give grace to those who listen." -Ephesians 4:29

Slowly turning this world into one big ass playground.     i go to too many shows.

You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep
Because reality is finally better then your dreams
...I CAN'T sleep

I was born in Argentina.

I put people before myself. i can relate to you no matter who you are,i can understand how you feel a ton of the time. ask me for advice ive been through a lot.

Come back to texas. :/

your like the sister i never had.

i love youuu, mandy lou who. :D

yours truely, Brandiannette

<3

your a fucking player and I can`t believe a part of me thought that you truely cared.

damn I was wrong. I will never date anyone thats so self center was you that you don`t even realize that your hurting the people around you.

goodbye. you`ll NEVER see me in your life again.

Ha, Corey can`t hate me for putting this up!!! Long and fun night we had!(:

Anyways, if you live in Taxes and like the band Modern Day Escape, go to the fucking show!!!! WOOT!! HA!

xxx

Brandiannette

Most people have a hard time trying to understand the passion i have towards this man,i'm not being creepy or anything, I just find him absolutely charming and his lyrics(Blink,but mostly Airwaves) helped me through most of my rough times, you will never fully get it.!!

 When I was in middle school while all the other girls where going crazy over the Backstreet Boys(I think in was them..) and how cute they were, I was the one who go home bring out my dad`s guitar and learn Tom`s part on guitar(My dad said I had a little check list so when I learned that song I would check it off.Ha I didn`t believe, but then I was wrong, I did have one.I was such an odd kid then I had to do things my way or the highway.)

The very first time I saw him, I was like 5 or something like that and my father took me to Blink-182 concert, had no clue who they were at all(Call me a weirdo, but I do remember seeing this one guy up there he was the lead singer(Tom), but I didn`t know who he was, but I just remember seeing him on stage playing guitar I thought is was the raddest thing ever. I have no clue how I remember that, but its just stuck with me from that day on.)Thats the day that I was opened up to a whole new world of art and music.

This feels kinda weird in a way because my dad is in his late thirtys`(Yes my parents had my at a very young age).Mmm Toms in his early thirtys`.mmmm.Never mind, I guess not really.

tell me what you think if you take the time to read it

there might be some errrors and i havent decided on names yet, so sorry if that confuses you.

The night sky crept up eating the daylight away. It was just the way i like it. Bright city lights flooded out the stars though, and the moon was no where in sight. Still i knew that was'nt the exact reason something felt missing to me. The days seemed longer even though the sun went down faster. My mind was always on something not relevant to what was happening to me at that moment. I decided i needed to get away, even if just for a little while. I felt i could crumble at any momemt, my knees where weak even though i stood up straight and walked along as if nothing was bothering me, as if nothing could get to me.

The drive, the place, it was all my getaway. I parked my car to where it was hidden in the shadows of a tall buliding. Not turning it off almost needing the hum of the engine and soft vibration under me. I turned my radio down low, the classics that struck the stuffy atmosphere of the inside, and cracked my window allowing cold air to spill in. All around me felt safe and relaxing. As i leaned my head back, i took a deep breath in. My mind was about to open up, my stomach almost tightened to what i knew was going to come, allowance of my ideas consuming my logics and my worries tangling the chancesi could take or make. Instead fear, suprise, and shock all shot through my body, attacking my stomach franticly, because of an asshole friend at my window. Her smile was friendly, i fought the urge to yell at her but decided against it. She read my face and her smile turned to laughter.

I never minded being around smokers. I kind of grown to love the smell, it became symbolic to me, to him. I didnt ever do it though, it wasnt for me, not something i felt i needed or wanted. This night was different. Her head was leaned into the car and her exhale of smoke, smacking me in the face, sent my lungs into a rage. An unexpecting desire rose and filled me.   He stood there, in my mind, leaning up against an alley wall, dressed in black like always, from his shoes to the wool hoodie he wore. His pale white skin shined under the moon light the last night i saw him. The last night i saw the moon. But there in my mind a crystal clear image of him stuck. Him lifting his hand to his face, his cigarette to his mouth. Gracefully. Almost like a scene from hollywood. His other arm was outstreached, waiting for me to join him. My, what always seemed to be cold, body up against his warmth. I could never forget that, it sent splinters in my heart when i thought about it. My body remained cold now, the warmth was lost.

The only color that stuck out of this hollywood scene was his bright green eyes and the shiny dark brown hair that fell a little over them, making the contrast even more apparent. Theses green eyes were forever stuck in my dreams. His secent was what caught me off guard. An attraction i couldnt understand. The faint smell of smoke was the only part of it i could magange to put into words.

Why? How could i decided to drop a guy who was everything i thought i wanted, needed, and could love? And all becuase i was afraid?!

Her sliding into the passenger seat is what broke my thinking chain, the one that always lead to him.  The image in my head and the necklace he gave me, are the only things i could hold onto, my hope i would see him again. She flicked her cigarette bud while making her self confortable in the seat and adjusting her bright red hair to one side. Her expression changed when she realized my hand had made a fist around the silver chain, black crystal hearted necklace that hung from my neck. I eased my grip when i noticed too.

"Ran, its going to be alright, i promise. Im glad i found you though, i had a feeling you would be here." her hand touched my shoulder, and i could tell she sensed the tension in my body with the contact she made.

"I know", was all i managed to huff out.

"And you know its okay to cry, im here you know, when you need me."

I hadnt shead a tear since he was gone. He told me not to. He told me i needed be stronger than i felt i could be, that my tear would be a waste over this. My face was undeserving to look anything but happy. He strived for my happiness. How could he be so loving of such a selfish person.

Snapping back to reality, the hand that was on my shoulder had dissapeared, leaving a warm outline on where it was. She felt worried more than anything that i hadnt cried. She feared i would handle everything a different way. I was her net, she needed me around. I couldnt allow my self to be selfish anymore. I would never leave her, never let her leave me, i would be her net, but never allow her to be mine.

Secrets he gave me of his life, left me faced with a choice, secrets i told him proved he was my love, she stood there, my best friend, how could i leave, how could i let him leave..

Haha, I look way different! It was taking about a year ago.Taken in Northen Ireland.

I like this one,but its blurry. : (

I know theres more then this..

xoxox

brandiannette